I did it to become less of a "loser" in my own eyes, basically. I did it so I could become a pioneer. Pioneers were supposedly hot sh*t. I wanted to be popular, a good example, a fine associate, respectable, etc. Without it I was just a run of the mill publisher kid. Without it, nobody paid attention to me or cared (not that they really changed much in that area AFTER I was a pioneer, but still...). When I was a pioneer I could puff out my chest with pride and say "I'm a pioneer!" and everyone would magically assume I was AMAZING. When you grow up being torn down, that's a mighty appealing offer. So I went for it.
One thing I've come to have an issue with over the last year or so, though...that I never really thought about before...is how the witnesses practically make fun of infant baptisms because the child can't possibly know anything about making a conscious decision to serve God. As a JW, I would simply say that such baptisms were "stupid" without caring if I was being disrepectful or not, because obviously those people didn't have "the truth" and therefore it didn't matter what they thought/felt. My issue NOW, though, is this: HOW MANNNNY people get baptised as JW's at SUCH a young age??? I mean seriously. Is 14 really an age at which a person can make a lifelong committment to something and know full well what they're doing???? I DON'T THINK SO!!! And THEN! If you're not baptised by the age of 15, practically, everone is asking you why not! JESUS WASN'T BAPTISED UNTIL HE WAS LIKE 30 (sue me, I can't remember exactly when lolol). The point is that he was a FULL GROWN ADULT. By EVERYONE'S standards! There is NO WAY ON EARTH that a 10-15 year old CHILD can make the decision of an ADULT. If you are not legally allowed to drive, smoke, vote, drink, WHATEVER....what on earth makes you think you are capable of devoting your entire being to something that is so much more complex than human levels of adulthood????
This is why you see so many late teens/early 20-somethings getting "tempted" and "screwing up". They made a ridiculously serious committment to something they could not possibly have understood the ramifications of.
Had I, back then, had the mind I have today (or even the mind I had 5 years ago!) I highly doubt I would have even gotten baptised at all.
One of my best friends growing up never got baptised and she got SO MUCH CRITICISM because of it. Even from me!!! I used to just ask her to get baptised...."just do it, pleeeeasssse!"....I'm glad she never listened. She was never fully convinced of certain things and I respect that so much more now that I, too, have awakened to the reality of the organization.
um....oh wow...it seems I have gone off on a tangent ....
woops. heehee!