Thanks for the suggestions. I have read Crisis of Conscience but it was well after I had done a lot of research. An excellent book I wish I could get my family to read it. I also read Be Wise as Serpents by Fritz Springmeier - I highly recommend it. I would like to read Steven Hassan's books next. So much to read and so much to learn. They do a good job of hiding their history and the fact that when you get baptized you are baptized to serve an organization, no questions allowed and till death do us part . . . oh wait a minute . . . once we're resurrected they will be there waiting in heaven to rule over us to judge us some more! Welcome to paradise WT style.
Black Sheep - I had to laugh because that is exactly what I have felt like - I need to become a psychiatrist, a deprogrammer, a mind control expert and whatever else I may need in my tool box to help others. Subtle is not my name when it comes to something I'm convinced of and yes - I may as well have dressed in a costume and chanted incantations. I have been called apostate, a liar and told that Satan has influenced me and I need help as I'm spiritually sick. Sickened is more like it! Now I'm trying to take it easy but as you know . . . once on the radar!
My favorite piece of advice from my conditional friends: "You need to humble yourself, throw your burden on the organization, don't dispute over little words, attend all the meetings, stay busy in field service, don't worry if you don't understand something, stand firm beside the organization and wait on Jehovah"
Well . . . let me tell you I have certainly been humbled since my eyes were opened and I saw how I have been controlled and manipulated for the last 30 years. Yikes - what else don't I know?