What would happen to me? I would be disfellowshipped. They would have to do it in my absence, because I wouldn't meet with them. They hold no power or control or authority over me.
I've already lost all of my family, they on both sides view me as an apostate, and rightly so. I am what they say. I left their religion, and if the cause is just, I'll speak out against the organization and do a reverse witness if you will. I doubt the existance of a god that really has a care or plan for people now. I think it's more of a curious observation at best....like observing the ant hill. Watching but not helping, seeing some struggle and it not pullling your heart strings. That alone could get me Df'd.
If my family or someone who knew them found my posts and pieced together what I've said, it would air all of our dirty laundry about sexual abuse etc, and would embarrass them. I still fight with that, making this information known doesn't make me feel badly about myself, or shamed, but I would still feel badly for affecting their day to day lives in making this info a source of conversation or gossip in their circle. I know I shouldn't want to protect them, it is their fault....but it's the decent person in me I suppose. So if I were caught, or found out here, I would just care if what I've said about my past and my family could be traced back to them.
I'm about ready to post a pic of me, especially after the 20# thread fiasco, to show I'm not a sloth lol....and just to share. Almost, not quite.
Would it affect me if I was DF'd? Nope, not in the least. No one talks to me from the family, surrounding congregations, and there are no friendships there I'm trying to protect. The only reason I haven't DA'd or made it easy for the to DF me is that it's THEIR games and rules, not mine. I chose not to play.
