It worried me to death. Constant concern over what would happen to my relatives and friends who weren't JWs. I could not take joy in the pictures in the Paradise book. This caused me serious issues with depression as a teenager and into early adulthood. This was especially bad for me because I was so stressed out about losing my father and grandparents in 1975 and then it didn't happen and the cognitive dissonance started setting in, although it took years to finally manifest itself clearly.
However, there are other people like my mother and my sister who absolutely relish the idea of walking by the dead bodies of the people they dislike and feeling superior because Jee-hoo-ber viewed them as more worthy. They are truly sociopaths.
StAnn