I see that you are really trying to be non-judgemental, elderelite, and I appreciate that. I also see that you meant no offense by any of your posts. I did not take offense, just wanted to clarify, at least my personal stand, on the matter.
I do sense that you are still heavily influenced by WT teachings and I also sense you are a bit torn... after all, you are here.
So, w/o too many specifcs that could "out" you, could you tell us just why you are here? Are you having doubts? If so, what are your "issues"? Are you here to help us back to the fold? Somehow I don't think so... If you are having doubts, do you have plans to stop being an elder and eventually fade? Are you woking as a spy for our benefit; for theirs?
I'm not being "cheeky", I really want to know. :)