Thanks for resurrecting a good thread. There were many things back then that set off an alarm in my brain and I can't remember everything but these stand out in my mind:
-Never liking or feeling comfortable with the culture and mentality of the religion. I couldn't even be myself around these people. Too much criticism, intrusiveness, paranoia and people's opinions. (And this was before I was even wise to all the users and the horrible attitude towards single women.) At this point I was still optimistic and trying! Stupid me.
-I always felt the magazines were more suited to grade school reading along the lines of Dick and Jane. This all goes along with their fear of higher education. I also thought it was unnatural to spend the amount of time they suggested on "studying" their publications. How in the world was anything else going to get done?
-Feeling like they were in a fantasy land playing a game of pretend and wanting us to believe the religion was like a little village in Israel or something. Meanwhile, I had to go out and function in the real world.
-I never quite accepted that somehow I was responsible for other people being saved. I suppose this is a guilt mechanism to get people to compulsively go out in service on a never-ending treadmill. I wondered then who was responsible for me? Ridiculous, really.
-As time went on I saw how they were elevating the elders and themselves higher and higher and they did not like to be criticized or questioned.
-Then came that 1995 changed teaching on generation and it all came crashing down! The religion should have packed it in as far as I was concerned because it was definitely over.