How are you dealing with discovering TTATT?
It's quite a few years since I stopped attending meetings and going out in the field service and I find it difficult to remember all of the feelings that I had at the time. It took some time to leave, and at first I didn't intend to and I think it made me ill for a while some time later. I prayed a lot. Although I was regular in my prayers I felt a need to pray more at this time and looking back on it, it wasn't as bad as it could have been.
I must say that I have always loved Jehovah and His son Jesus Christ.
I feel similar. I was raised in the truth and never thought I would leave. However I came to a point that I could not join in the preaching/ witnessing work with a good conscience. I was never an organization sort of person. Romans 8:37,38 I find encouraging. As time has gone by I have found more clarity in my views and thoughts and more peace of mind.