Mad Sweeney, Wasblind, Scarred for Life, Mr. Flipper, Loosie, Isaacaustin – thank you all for your kind words and understanding. This is one of the only places where people understand what we have been through growing up in the bOrg.
Scarred for Life – I, too, recently lost my mother. She died right before I started posting on this site. I don’t want to talk about that or post about – maybe someday. But that has really brought up a lot of emotion. Enough said on that for now anyway. For the past two decades, I have gone on with my life, and have done a great job of adjusting to the real world. Even though I’ve adjusted and am a happy person, I still feel like an outsider when it comes to all kinds of situations, including holidays.
I actually told a couple of friends I’ve known for about a year now (a married couple) just the other day that I grew up in a cult. I was trying to explain why and how I never did fireworks and didn’t know anything about them. We did fireworks together on July 3 rd . They were so kind!
And there’s always the thing about being without a family. It’s frightening to be out on your own without a family at 18. No backup whatsoever. No place to go. Totally alone. Scary! Of course, I’ve created my own family now through adoption. But my background influenced very much my decision to adopt through the foster care system.
I couldn’t stand the idea of children being without a family so I created mine by adopting children that needed a forever family. I couldn’t have imagined any other way of creating my family. I never take my children for granted, and love them more than anything in the world. I can’t imagine rejecting them, ever.