I just watched the BBC panorama program about JW's and their child abuse problems on you tube.
I havn't seen it since it was first aired. I was watching it and recalling what my reaction was when i saw it for the first time as a commited devout JW.
Before the program aired the congregation called a extrodinary meeting in which a letter was read out from bethal. they seemed to back up every point they made by a scripture read out by another brother also on the platform. One of the things we were told is that the GB gave a interview to the makers of the program but that none of it had been used.Afterwards there was a great deal of talk about the upcoming program between the brothers and sisters, they were united by disgust that this program was being aired, i left that meeting already decided that i was not going to belive anything stated in the program. I was also unaware of how stupid and narrow minded this veiwpoint was.
I watched the program, and scoffed the whole way through. I felt sure that these terrible storys had to, they just had to be made up by apostates. The loving brothers and sisters couldn't possibly behave like that! I used reasons such as reffering to the JW's as a "church" and one of the former JW's being shown as smoking as reasons for not beliving. I finshed watching the program certain that it was all lies and that i was completly correct in beliving this.
... As i watched the program again just now i was shocked and horrifiled at the way i reacted to the program first time round. I can't belive i was so brain washed and stupid that i ignored somthing that was so obviously there! In my defence, as many of you know, when JW's now call at my door i now call them out about this issuse and watch as they stumble around trying to make stupid exhuses which i then shoot down much to their embarrsment.
I feel like i should apologise though for my reaction first time round to all the people who weren't belived. I'm so sorry.