I am glad you survived the beginning of your journey of self discovery, AO. It's great that you have even made it a good way down your path with some positive happenings.
I have found that I am more "spiritual" than ever now that I don't have "the lord" and know that there is not an omnipotent, omnibenevolent force offering guidance to mankind. I think that you are finding the same thing out- the "spiritual" part, not necessarily the part about no super-dude in the sky.
Life is precious and it shouldn't be wasted on trying to force JW beliefs on strangers. "Precious" doesn't mean it has to be constantly busy. It's okay to relax and enjoy life. Life is about love and sharing and peace, as you have discovered for real.
I was told by the JW's that I wanted the answers to life's big questions- Why are we here? What happens when we die? That was a load of crap. I was just looking for the answer to the question, "Who am I?" Now, after a big gap in time, I get to fully explore that question.
Thanks for posting this.