Welcome phoebed! Many hugs to you! I'm so sorry for your situation. My heart goes out to you. You mentioned about not giving your details - please do be very careful about the details you give in order to protect your privacy.
The subject of women and the WTS is an infuriating one. They are awful in their treatment of women. The chauvanism and misogyny of the organization is DISGUSTING.
As jamiebowers said - if there is any violence involved please get OUTSIDE help!
I look forward to your story. You've come to the right place to share it. You will get empathy, compassion, care and love here. There is a lot of good advice as well. Just knowing that others are going through or have experienced similar things is a great help and comfort.
Right now you need to take really good care of yourself. You can do this! It gets better one day at a time.
Hadit