I know that the main reason that I quit going to meetings - and associating with JWs is that I did not feel 'good enough'.
I always felt that I was not up to the 'high standards' that were required to be a JW.
So - I took myself out - so to speak - and faded away.
Of course, back then, many years ago - there wasn't any internet to go to and look things up, or compare notes and stories. I was pretty much isolated in my thoughts. Nothing new, as I was a loner anyway.
I know this is off-topic, as it does not deal with masturbation, and I apologize.
Regards,
Jim TX