SD-7 Is In the House!
by snowbird 41 Replies latest jw friends
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snowbird
... and here for the first time in 1 month: http://www.jehovahs-witness.net/jw/friends/198649/1/Oct-15th-WT-JW-Version-Dont-Trust-your-Own-Viewpoint-its-Distorted
He stated, "Reports of my assimilation have been greatly exaggerated."
Tee hee hee.
I read you, ASO, but didn't have anything newsworthy to report.
Syl
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Mary
Glad to see he's here.
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WingCommander
JW women are mostly complete b*tches!! I never dated a ONE. When I was 16, I had a big boobed one almost put my face in her cleavage at a DC once!! Sweeeet. She's probably out by now though. (I can only hope).
I pity SD-7 to the extreme. His wife has him so pussy-whipped that he's ready to be institutionalized. The JW shit just makes it 10X worse to deal with. However, if had any balls he'd pull head of household on her and smack the shit out of her for once. She abuses him, she should get some right back.
Sorry, but I've read his sad stories from the beginning, and after a while it gets tiresome as he makes absolutely NO progress, just keeps getting abused more by the mind-controlled psycho JW bitch. SAD.
- Wing Commander
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Gregor
WD-40 is in the tool shed!
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JWoods
Wing Commander - shut up.
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WingCommander
Lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalallaalalalala.
lol.
- Wing Commander
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JWoods
WC - What in the hell are you talking about?
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sd-7
Great. Thanks for giving people target practice again. Hi, how are you?
I considered going back to this religion because I believed it to be the only way to save my marriage. Frankly, at the beginning of August, I almost threw her out in a moment of uncharacteristic anger. She had her bags packed and was about to leave. Inexplicably, she gave me one last chance to reconsider. So, I asked her to stay.
Look, my emotions have been, as JWoods once put it, "all over the map". I've made irrational decisions and tolerated the intolerable. Sometimes it takes one person a lot longer to take action and stand up for themselves than others. A lot longer, in extreme cases, such as my own. My choices regarding the JWs should not have given either my wife or myself a blank check for doing whatever we wanted to do. Things are probably not as black and white as some of my previous posts would suggest; they are snapshots that probably omit better times and positive experiences my wife and I have shared.
I made a vow to be with this woman for better or worse. Given the complexities of divorce, it is not a decision anyone should make lightly or on the advice of anonymous individuals--or even close friends, for that matter. It's a personal decision. I've made a lot of bad choices in terms of everything here, and marriage was most certainly an ill-conceived choice. It was irresponsible of me to involve someone else in my life at this time. But I can't simply undo that because things have gotten rough.
I don't want to break up my marriage unless I can do so rationally and with a mutual agreement from my wife about it. And frankly, it's not really all that far from where we are now. We both recognize that things are not what we wanted and are wondering if it was all a waste of time. Clearly, we both lacked something in our lives that has caused us to make these choices that have brought us both to this point. There's no silver bullet solution. Not for me. Each one has a moral code of his or her own, and mine says that divorce is to be an absolute last alternative. If there wasn't anything good about her, I wouldn't have even considered marrying her. There isn't a bad guy here, there is only conflict, and all relationships have that.
It would be easy to just divorce her. Probably easier than I care to admit. But last I checked, I don't have to answer to people who aren't in the situation. I have to deal with it in my own way on my own terms in my own time.
Instead of going to the KH, I visited the Christadelphians one night. I then read an experience of an ex-Christadelphian online and it sounded eerily familiar, so I backed off of that. I'm now thinking that God is either nonexistent or simply doesn't care enough to tell us what's really going on. I'm now more interested in science than I once was. There was a great article in a recent Scientific American called "Faith and Foolishness" that I want to share with you all sometime soon.
Anyway, I don't think anything I could say or do would be acceptable to everyone, and heck, a lot of what I do or put up with would be intolerable for most. I'm not fully free. As I've been told, that can take years. I've really only been out for six months, and I was a born-in and loyal to a fault for a very long time. You have to walk before you can run, and you have to crawl before you can walk. I don't see how more abusive speech will help with that, but hey, if that floats your boat, fire away. Some people thrive on that.
I don't see myself as a victim of anything or anyone, except my own curiosity and desire for acceptance that can only come from within. I made choices, I'm living with the consequences. I'm not looking for special attention. I just needed someplace to pour out my heart, maybe bounce ideas off of people who have been there. I have the option to listen or not, to speak or not.
For those who have been helpful, I thank you. And for those who just want to deride or make fun or whatever, that's fine, too. I try to treat people with respect, and I'm sorry that I'm not tough enough to take it when that respect is not reciprocated. I'll try hard to avoid giving microscopic details of my personal life in the future, and I may just screw up again and paint a target on my head. But in my own time, I will move to another stage of existence, and that doesn't preclude staying with my wife. That's my right to exercise. It's my life to screw up or to fix. You can only tell people so many times about the same things, and either they'll listen or not. It's just human nature.
Again, thanks, Sylvia, in the bad/sad way, for starting a thread about my return.
-sd-7
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nelly136
nice to see ya Smiff