Sleep Eludes Me ...

by compound complex 53 Replies latest jw friends

  • compound complex
    compound complex

    Retreating to the inviting cool of freshly laundered bed sheets is what my weary body hankers for.

    My crazed yet somehow subdued caffeinated brain, however, keeps me stiff and upright at my desk, my imagination making the most of what I know for a certainty lurks outside my low slung windows. They are not without curtains, but the sheer panels are useless for blocking out the horror that menaces from without. The collective silhouette of wraiths whispering by is exaggerated rather than blocked and, thereby, minimized by draperies that may soon double as my shroud.

    Were I not endeavoring to put the barrier of my desk between myself and the darkness that seeps through all planes vertical and horizontal of this doomed house, perhaps I could allow my mind to escape to freedom through the flimsy defenses of a sanctuary taken ...

  • Bubblegum Apotheosis
    Bubblegum Apotheosis

    Coco, how many poetry and English courses did you study in school, your writing is energetic and fresh!

  • Bubblegum Apotheosis
    Bubblegum Apotheosis

    Coco, how many poetry and English courses did you study in school, your writing is energetic and fresh!

  • compound complex
    compound complex

    Greetings, Bubblegum Apotheosis (one of my fave words!):

    Thank you for the encouraging post.

    No courses that I took were out of the ordinary in my typical, circa 1960s Liberal Arts education. I grew up reading the classics and took creative writing as an after school sport. Learned proofreading at the House of God and am currently editor to an online magazine and to individual authors.

    That's it!

    Do you write?

    CoCo

  • compound complex
    compound complex

    Twenty-five days ... 25 days away, unable to sleep, to come to terms with what niggles unspoken but sure within a body and spirit disintegrating bit by bit.

    Staring at black walls has become a preoccupation; their inky darkness penetrates my skull and slinks down my spine, crippling what was once a man of bravado and courage unmatched by that of any of my contemporaries. Shutting bleary red eyes against what has become my new normalcy is only an invitation to lip-smacking demons who gleefully usher this paralyzed man into a nightmare world, a world that my religion has no power to conquer and make safe for a once devoted, unquestioning follower.

  • nancy drew
    nancy drew

    Lip-smacking demons

    that's a good one

  • compound complex
    compound complex

    Thanks, Nancy!

  • compound complex
    compound complex

    A few hours more must pass before I greet the dawn,
    but it will not be the rosy dawn hailed by the gushing
    poet who sees with an overflowing, cheerful heart.

    No, my view of the rising sun is that of a man whose
    eyes have grown dim, they whose luster has become
    dull, for I have seen more of what is bad than good.

    I could wish for better, but desire alone has never been
    enough to make my life the fabulous tale that might end
    with such words that close our most favorite of stories:

    "They lived happily ever after."

  • THE GLADIATOR
    THE GLADIATOR

    compound complex Moving words indeed. Life can lose its lustre. Hang on in there.

  • compound complex
    compound complex

    I appreciate your kind words, THE GLADIATOR!

    Really, I'm all right. I just get melodramatic with my poetry ...

    CoCo

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