And no matter what I am different and will always be....People look at me and know I was raised a goodie two shoes....I guess I can't shake off the JW upraising. It is on my face and in my eyes. I have thought about getting peircings and tatoos,but I don't think that will even hide it.
I don't know why a person who thinks for themselves is termed a "goody two shoes." It just means that you haven't thrown away your money on drugs that have no benefit (I am not arguing against pain relief for cancer), and may harm you. Also, as people must be aware, by supporting drug cartels they may be contributing to the deaths of many. Please watch some of the news about the border with its violence and drug smuggling. (living here in Texas I am very aware)
Why be concerned that you haven't developed and been plagued by life-ruining addictions as some of the others have? Just because they laugh doesn't mean these addictions don't cause them continous misery.
It looks to me like you have dodged a bullet and still have a clear head. Instead of needing body piercings or tatoos, I hope you will get an education and learn about the world around you. This will help you to find your place in it, and define your own ideas and opinions.
In THIS way you will shake of the "JW upraising."