Its moments like this in WT Land that leave me bewildered. I feel like there are apostate sympathizers in the Writing Department and even on the GB who purposely present offensive material like this to wake people up for the purpose of finding the door out of this religion. Its like they're subtely trying to get us to leave. Then I remember arrogant power mongers like Jaracz and Rutherford, and I realize that the smug arrogant talk coming out of Bethel is really from their hearts. They really do view the rank and file as ungrateful bastard red headed stepchildren.
My dad who is roughly 72, I can't recall as we don't celebrate birthdays, but lately I've been picking up a certain disgruntled spirit within him. He's always been sort of a wildcard. He's not the kind of guy you win arguments with and he's hardheaded. He's always been the kind of guy that would tell a Circuit Overseer to drop dead, and he prides himself off of being that kind of fellow. When I talk with him nowadays, he doesn't speak in reverence of the organization like he used to. There's a sort of us vs them mentality he has regarding us down here, and those in Bethel. When I asked him his thoughts on the upcoming Elder School, he told me, "its going to be the same thing we had thirty years ago." I replied that it has to be different considering the times we live in. He replied, "please, its going to be the same old crap I had to sit through when I got appointed thirty years ago."
When we talk about the times we live in, he genuinely believes the world is messed up, and he's always saying that he wishes Jehovah would hurry up and act soon. However his talk lately has went from hoping Jehovah acts soon, to telling me he won't live long enough to see it. He thinks I'll see it, but he'll be dead. I told him I'll probably be dead when it happens too. I'm careful when saying these things because I don't want to come out and state the painfully obvious.........that he probably wasted a good 50 years of his life in this organization waiting for something that happened in 70 C.E.