But it's so hard for me to let out the tears. I think it has to do with how my dad raised me. Crying was very looked down upon.
Just got done reading chapter 4 of Combatting Cult Mind Control. Once I was done, I felt like I was inside an emotional tornado. It's all so true! The GB obviously knows what they are doing. They are purposefully imparting these tactics on the members... MY FAMILY!
Removal of Book Studies in peoples home = they don't trust the members in such a casual environment anymore (because people like me are leaving and speaking out!)
Separation of the two Watchtowers = better public image (because the public has access to the real information because of the ex members!) - This is proven by reading the public WT. It has lax views on leaving the Organization and their view on homosexuality.
^ These are information control tactics that have been implemeted RECENTLY... THEY ARE STILL DOING IT!
It's an unexplainable pain. Knowing that your family is under the effects of mind control as they shun and ostracize you. They are spying on me on this very forum, putting together "evidence" of apostasy.
HEY GUYS!
I want to cry!
I want to let it out, but it doesn't come. It just stays within and eats away like an acid.
-Sab