and just for the record...I didn't start a church. oy! What a bruhaha THAT would be...to say nothing of how much work it is.UGH.
To my mom's credit she did say "I don't want you doing this for me. You have to do it for yourself." I did tell her I don't think being a spiritual person comes naturally for me. I'm spiritual, but not religious. And right now, I just don't care. She took it well.
What I want is to just live a normal life, free of the pressure of going to the KH. Working out of town a lot has helped, I'm enjoying living in a place where no one knows me at all. It is very freeing. I don't have to worry about being seen and reported, "found out"or that I might offend someone. I've put my life on hold following the rules, and now I'm tired. I deserve to have a family, and people who like me just for who I am, not because I meet some quota or attend a certain amount of meetings a month.
Sounds reasonable to me.
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