Hi again IO.
What you're asking for is inside information. The knowledge in those books are for fully indoctrinated JW's only, hence thats why you're termed "not ready".
In other words, you question too much. Once you are showing yourself totally compliant to all the information your currently fed, (termed "appreciative") and are regular at the meetings, then - and only then will you be trusted with the inside information.
A JW's relationship is indeed like a parent-child one.
"God has not arranged for that Word to speak independently or to shine forth life-giving truths by itself. His word says "light is sown for the righteous". It is through his organization that God provides this light that the proverb says is the teaching or law of the mother. If we are to walk in the light of truth we must recognise not only Jehovah God as our Father but his organization as our mother." May 1st 1957 WT pg 274
WTWizard mentioned something that must be difficult for individual JW's: even if they can show that a WT doctrine is unsound Biblically, they have to go along with it and wait for the organization to fix it.
This is true.
"Are we assigned as individuals to bring forth the food for the spiritual table? No? Then let us not try tot ake over the slave's duties. We should eat and digest and assimilate what is set before us, without shying away from parts of the food because it may not suit the fancy of our mental taste........We should meekly go along with the Lord's theocratic organization and wait for further clarification, rather than balk at the first mention of a thought unpalatable to us and proceed to quibble and mouth our criticisms and opinions as though they were worth more than the slave's provision of spiritual food. Theocratic ones will appreciate the Lord's visible organization and not be so foolish as to pit against Jehovah's channel their own human reasoning and sentiment and personal feelings........After being nourished to our present spiritual strength and maturity, do we suddenly become smarter than our former provider and forsake the enlightening guidance of the organization that mothered us?" WT Feb 1 1952