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You mention about praying to Jehovah about this situation. I'm sure that you've heard the saying: 'God works in mysterious ways'. Perhaps this situation is Jehovah's way of helping you look at the JW religion to prove to yourself if it is really 'The Truth'. Sometimes the best results come from situations that initially seem very dire and hopeless.
1 Thess 5:21 indicates to: test all things and to hold onto what is good. This situation may have been the only thing to cause you to test the Watchtower organization to prove if what it proclaims is actually 'The Truth' and is actually God's organization on earth. Someone once made the profound statement along the line: The biggest obstacle to finding truth ... is the mistaken belief that you've already found truth (or already know it).
You are individually responsible for what you believe and the life you live and only you can prove that your beliefs are correct. Association with an organization does not automatically give you a 'Free Pass'. You need to ask yourself: Do I really want to know the "Truth"? Am I humble enough to accept TRUTH even if it contradicts what I already thought was 'The Truth'?
Don't blindly accept whatever anyone tells you, but check into the things they say to test if what is said is correct. This goes for what anyone here tells you and especially for the Watchtower as only they proclaim to be God's only mouthpiece.
Is what the Watchtower requires actually required by God or does what they demand actually contradict what the Bible says, if the bible passage is read in proper context?
This maybe the only occasion where you can freely investigate any and all information to prove the claims made by the Watchtower. Take advantage of this opportunity! Decisions you make now can have a monumental impact on you, your husband's and child's future life.
Wannabefree said:
We were protective of the organization.
Considering JW's stating that Jehovah is the most powerful being in the entire universe, their usual actions contradict this statement. If he is the most powerful being, why do we, mere weak humans, need to protect him and cover-up what goes on within HIS organization?
Your life as a JW affects who you are and how you deal with life's situations. Since the JW religion has such a major influence, in your and your Husband's need for Professional assistance, the affect of the religion must be discussed if you both are to progress in dealing with your issues.
