So, this summer I have a family reunion to attend. We have not had one in a few years and am looking forward to getting together with my cousins. The problem is on my dad's side there are as many non-witnesses as there are witnesses. In the past years, it has been mainly the non-witnesses and my parents, sis (and family), bro and his wife who get together. But there are a few witnesses who also come.
Because we don't see each other every year, our reunion is on both Saturday and Sunday. 2 days of catching up, playing cards and eating! I was REALLY looking forward to going.
Then it dawned on my yesterday. I am disfellowshipped. My witness Aunt's/Uncle's and cousins are not supposed to talk to me, let alone eat and play cards with me. On the other hand.....the majority there will be non-witnesses.
I called my mom in a panick and half heartbroken last night to see what her and my dad thought. They said GO! If the witnesses don't want to talk to me, then that is up to them. I can just hang with the non witness family. SO I AM GOING TO GO!!
This just pisses me off more and more. The way that I am, I am going to feel bad for putting the witnesses in a bad position by just being present. Why does my joy need to be taken away from me in every direction? I am NOT a bad person and yet I am treated as if I have a contageous disease.
Heartbreaking. Thanks for listening........