I remember that I always assumed it was everything else in life that was stressing me out, not the meetings and all that. For one, I usually got depressed when I knew it was MEETING NIGHT. I felt like I wasn't really going for the sake of learning anything, but rather to report in, like prisoners' roll call or something.
Tuesdays were the worst, and getting up for work or school the next day was awful. Sometimes the assemblies made me feel like I'd eaten the whole weekend only to leave the program feeling sad and inadequate. Especially after hearing how somebody had like a death in the family, two heart attacks, and still manages to pioneer. You know the stories...
Getting a meeting night off was better than getting a day off from school. But...it never consciously occurred to me that it was the meetings that were the problem. Except for the Book Study, back when it was on Saturday mornings. I loathed it, always ended up late because I didn't feel like getting up. And field service, it was idiotic. Nobody would go to the territory for an hour! And then it's the heat of the day and you're sweating to get through a couple of blocks and you talk to maybe 3 people after 2 hours of door knocking.
This is like Boxer in 'Animal Farm'. "I will work harder" is the only solution to all problems, rather than facing the problems directly.
--sd-7