Thank you guys. I really honestly can't tell you how much I appreciate the support. This is the place I come to that always makes me feel a bit more normal.
Sometimes I am able to fight these feelings by just feeling mad but other times I just feel so completely helpless. Therapy helped for a little while... but like the therapist said the only way to truly get through something like this is with a support group.
I wish there were JW annonymous meetings, but the internet will do for now.
Again thank you, and I owe the person who runs this website as well.