Heres my plan, I love God, but not the WT. I want to worship God, not the WT. Then they will say that the WT and GB are Jahs mouthpiece.
But the WT have made numerous, dangerous, and downright scandalous claims that havent come true. They will say its because of new light, yes? Well, new light doesnt extinguish old light does it? I believe God cannot lie. So, are they accusing God of getting it wrong, and therefore make continual adjustments to docturine? If they are Jahs visable organisation, and his mouthpeice, then they are accusing Him of getting it wrong...surely?
I may be way off course here, but Im too angry to just say.."Oh, Im not coming back and its a personal decision etc..."
Im confused on here to be honest. I feel like Im being treated like an idiot. I know Im niave, but please remember, these questions are important to me even if they seem silly and pointless to some, these are very real fears Ive been expressing. To be honest, being isolated with agoraphobia and anxiety for 10 years really means Ive been kept out of the wordly loop so to speak, so Im just learning how to deal with it from you guys.
Im a senior member on a panic attack forum. To be honest, I myself get a bit exasperated at some newbies who post things like, help me! panic...what can I do!....and I think, well, if youve been diagnosed with it, you must have been advised how to cope etc.......what I mean is, to you all its obvious how I should go about it. For me, I guess I wont know until the sisters/elders are in my living room and Im in the kitchen waiting for the kettle to boil. I will just do what I feel is right at the time I guess. If I blab and am acused of being weak willed/apostate etc...fine. If I say Im mentally ill, and not going back for personal reasons....fine. I guess its a case of suck it and see.