Hi Faithful2Jah: Maybe the following will help you understand me better.
Amazing: A couple statements you made caught my eye.
1. "... my higher power, whomever She/He/It might be." 2. "... if God cared so much about us as His adopted Children through His most beloved Son, Jesus ..."
Judging from your first statement, I take it that the key word in your second statement is "if."
I make these statements for two reasons. 1. I have some concerns with God that go beyond the Watchtower religion. 2. I am trying to not be judgmental in what I think is the truth today.
JWs do much harm to many people. But the worst harm they do is destroy many people's faith in God and Christ.
I once felt this way. I suppose that the JWs have destroyed the faith of some. I think that for many, as they search, grow and starts expanding the scope of their views, there coems a point in time where they may question the existence of God. I do not think that this is necessarily caused by their JW experience, but that their JW experience perhaps acted as a "delay" in a process that was an eventuality.
Sadly, it appears they managed to destroy yours. I wonder, after successfully leading your family out of the JWs, have you also been successful in leading them away from a belief in the God of the Bible?
My wife is a believing Christian.
My oldest daughter is a believing Christian.
My Son-in-Law is a Believing Christian.
My oldest son does not comment much, but inclines to believe in God.
My younger daughter is a believing Christian.
My youngest son is a believing Christian.
Me ... I am still searching. Science, reasoning, questioning and looking for substance over wishful thinking has led me to believe that the problem with God is not whether he exists, but who he is and what he wants with us. I do not buy into atheism because it comes across as arrogant to say for sure that there is no God. I find nature to simbiotic and complex to believe that evolution is the sole cause of our existence ... evolution is proven, but there are some big gaps in some of it that science cannot explain. So I leab toward God. I find Jesus Christ to be awesome, and the one person in history that continues to be my last hope in God.
Hope that helps. You are always free to email me for in-depth discussion at [email protected]