Yadirf,
My experiences have been that the organization has been the one spitting in my face, as far back as I can remember.
I believed the WT was God's only channel to mankind etc. I believed it for a very long time. It was only after that famous last straw that I decided to really do research to determine if the WT was truely speaking for god, only then by comparing what the WT teaches, with what the bible really says, and what bible scholars say, did I realize that the teachings of Jehovah's Witnesses were false.
I do not know if you have done any research, other than WT publications, or not. I think you are probably like my JW family. They have told me I should return to Jehovah's organization, but, I ask them this question, "I have studied BOTH sides of the Watchtower teachings, and claims, and I know both sides, have you?" If not, then how can you be in any position to tell someone that you have the correct answers?
You simply cannot.
I think you assume that I know better than to believe the way I do. The fact is that I know better than to believe the way the JWs do. I do really hope that you will seriously consider an honest investigation of your beliefs.
It is hard to do, I always thought that Jehovah knew my thoughts and that He would be very angry if I even considered thinking that the WT teachings could be wrong. I came to realize that truth can stand any test, only falsehood must hide from examination.
The scripture that changed everything for me was Deuteronomy 18:20-22. I knew that during my lifetime the WT had made prophecies, call them whatever you want, they are still prophecies, and that every last one of those prophecies proved to be false. I read God's words telling me NOT to fear the Watchtower as they were false prophets. From that point on I started on a course of truely KNOWING God, not having a knowledge of God, Satan and the demons have a KNOWLEDGE of God.
I wish the same thing for you, that you come to know God.
Borgfree
"Without knowledge there can be no genuine faith--only superstition on the one hand or speculation on the other" Robert Banks