Hello everyone!
Well, it’s been 4 weeks since joining this site! Firstly, thank you all so much for responding to my previous thread about my sexuality although being a JW. I appreciate your thoughts and comments.
I thought it would be appropriate that I let you all know how I’m doing. I have met so many caring and considerate people on here. I guess I should have taken the whole ‘stay away from ‘apostates’’ business with a pinch of salt - you have been more helpful to me in my recent struggles than many JW’s! Thanks so much for that.
So, I have accepted my sexuality as a gay man, and I have been actively searching for a boyfriend. I have met some great people so far. One young man I have met, named Jack, is such a lovely person. He is also a Christian and has a very high level of morality. I find this very attractive and we have already begun to speak more, and I feel our friendship is growing nicely. Plus… he is GORGEUOS! :) At first I was a little unsure about what I was doing. After 23 years of indoctrination, it quite difficult to start doing something that you know is condemnable. Nonetheless I tell myself that this is who I am. I am still going to meetings for the moment as I still believe it’s a good thing to do, but when the time comes I will have no problem with leaving it all behind me. In many ways, I don’t consider that I’m turning my back on the organisation; I see it that they are turning their backs on me!
I know that many of you still have a strong belief in God, just as I do. It will soon be the case that I will serve God in my own unique way, and I’m pretty certain that he will find my worship acceptable to him. Through careful study of the scriptures, I realise that God is merciful and gives everlasting life to those doing his will. I’m keen to continue doing his will: just with one slight difference on my part - my sexuality. I have resolved such issues now in my heart and I’m much better after doing so.
All in all, I feel HAPPY! This is the happiest I’ve felt in 8 months, and as every day passes, I feel stronger and much more sure of who I am. I love the feeling! LIFE IS GOOD!
Thanks to everyone for your support!
I love you all! :)
Love from Timmy xxx