Has anyone ever had that dreaded "meeting day" feeling where you know you are going to waste two hours or more of your life - not to mention on the weekends where you can't go away for a whole day somewhere because you have FS on Saturday, then a meeting on Sunday? Or when you know you have to catch up on work etc but you know that with weekly FS pressures plus the meeting you have lost six hours before the weekend has even started?
Meeting Day
by captain 12 Replies latest jw friends
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trevorbv
I Fell You. Everyone who decided to fade feels the same. Last week after a long time I went to the KH. I kept asking myself: "What am I doing here? Who believes this crap? How could I believe this stuff? I'm wasting my life..."
My advice: skip as many as you can. If you can't for the moment then buy a smartphone and get an internet connection. Stay in the corner and keep youself busy. -
av8orntexas
It's one of the biggest things I don't miss. Get up at 315am,leave the house at 4. Start work at 530am. Get off at 130pm. After the drive home,step in the door at about 3pm. Cook dinner,eat and clean up. It's about 5pm now. Shower ( now I'm REALLY sleepy and tired. ) ,get dressed. Mind you I haven't studied so I skim the lesson whatever it is and highlight some key points. That way sister smoking hot thinks I've studied, and I'm a strong,mature christian man in Jehovahs Congregation.
By this time it's 6 and due to tracffic, not distance. I probably need to leave at 6;10-6:15 to get there at 6:50 or right at 7. Open the magazine room,give sister talks alot her mags, and remind her that she still had some to pick up ( so brother big shot will get off my butt about why they're still in the back. ) Close it up,and usually I'd sit but once again one of the younger brothers ( early teens, as I was early 20's ) has not shown up in time,or come to the meeting. So once again I'm working the mics. If I were lucky, I wouln't have a part. To think......back then I thought I was doing something because I did the mics AND gave my talk. ( I was really impressing em I tell ya' ) when really I was dead tired.
After the meeting is over. Roll up the mics ( not very many wireless mics back then. ) Go work the magazine room. I see sister smoking hot,but she's talking to brother loser. His dad is the big shot at the local company,he doesn't have a job,but he drives one bad ass car, because since he's going to Bethel his dad has his back no matter what. And alllll the sisters are on him. He's going places. I can see I won't get anytime with her,because I'm no longer a pioneer,but work for a living.Now...... I have no faith in Jehovah as I'm reaching out for material things. FINALLY close the mag room. See a few older friends,chat it up. Walk out to my car and it is now about 10pm. Get home undressed, and damn...it's nearly 11pm and I have to get up at 3am. Brother Loves service calls to see if I want to go out on my day off. I say yes, then watch the weather channel and hope for severe weather ( I really did that ) on said service day.
Yep. I sure do miss all that.
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miseryloveselders
Dang Av8ornTexas, you just described my early to mid 20ish life!!! My mouth is on the keyboard right now!! So true, its enough to make a man bitter. Make you want to take a trip to Walkhill with enough ammunition for a battalion.
One job I had was a night shift, and I'd have to clock in at like 10:30pm, I can't remember. I remember going to the Tuesday night book study, and the brother that conducted it, whom I love dearly, he's a good dude, but he was the black version of Ben Stein. He would ask the craziest questions, in the most monotone of a voice. I used to cringe having to get up at 5:30pm breaking my sleep to sit somewhere for an hour going over Daniel's or Isaiah's Prophecy, I can't remember which book back then, maybe both of those stupid books. Then some of the houses didn't have A/C, and the temperature was set at Chernobyl! Ruining dress shirts because the Old Spice wasn't Ph balanced or strong enough for this man. Wintertime was rough too, because you tend to want to sleep more in that season. Hated the book study back then. Then two nights later, we'd have the mid week meeting, and I had to break my sleep to sit again in a meeting. Back then, I was really reaching out, which was the 2nd worst mistake of my life, second only to getting baptized into this metastisized cancer of a religion. I was running mics, handling the sound, doing Instruction Talks, doing Bible Highlights, handling Service Meeting parts, sometimes doing the Instruction Talk and a Service Meeting part on the same night all the while handling the sound system.
Looking back on it all............not one thing about doing all that crap was scriptural!!! All the retarded traditions of men. Right after the Tuesday night book study, I'd go home and change, and get ready for work. No sense in trying to fit in a nap, cuz all that did was make it that much more difficult to go to work. The Thursday night meeting, I didn't even go home afterwards, I'd head straight to work. Eventually I got fired from that job for too many call offs and coming in late. That was a blessing but I was just too young and immature to see that the job wasn't the problem. I still didn't actually figure out what the problem was until a little over a year ago. It pains me that I didn't have an oppurtunity to punch Jaracz in the mouth before he passed. Maybe the Devil will let me knuckle up with him in Hades, who knows.
I know what you mean about the fly sisters not giving us regular baffoons the time of day. I was sincerely busting my butt in the hall for a couple reasons. One I'd be bored if I just sat there like all the other amoebas, and two I thought this is what Jehovah expected of me. Meanwhile all the dudes that were either circuit stars simply because of their family connections or the ones who were barely in Da Troof, got all the fly sisters. They were the ones going to parties gatherings and dating and marrying beautiful sisters. Granted to be honest, I had some fun unbeknownst to those who thought I was the perfect JW until it got old to me. Afterwards the bitterness set in, and I have to thank Dr.Dre' and Snoop Dogg for providing a soundtrack to numb out the bitter feelings toward fly JW gals back then. I'm not gonna post the song on here, we'll just say its on Dre's Chronic album, track 16. Another one might be Snoop's Doggystyle album, track 19. G'z up, you know the rest of the title.
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captain
I forgot about hoping for bad weather on an all day service day... a chance to catch up on the stuff you need to do (or even just to catch up on some sleep debt) guilt free!
Or even hoping to get severely ill on an assembly weekend...
Or when they announce there's going to be an extra meeting on a Saturday night (yay!) or even a whole saturday afternoon because there's a visiting "celebrity" (such as a bethel bigshot or a zone visit... not to suggest such ones are seeking more "prominence" than anyone else of course!! That's what "Christendom" does right?)
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captain
AND (I'm on a roll now) miseryloveselders and Av8orn think about this one ...
1. The brothers who work full time (theoretically) make larger donations
2. The visiting celebrity from another country or area travels bethel's expense, which ultimately is sourced from our donations. They also tend to take a few of their "vacation" days as well.
3. We then have to give up our own time or take time off work to listen to said brother
So it's effectively a double whammy.
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man in black
Damn, these stories are making me break out in a sweat.
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miseryloveselders
Or when they announce there's going to be an extra meeting on a Saturday night (yay!) or even a whole saturday afternoon because there's a visiting "celebrity" (such as a bethel bigshot or a zone visit... not to suggest such ones are seeking more "prominence" than anyone else of course!! That's what "Christendom" does right?)
I've gotta couple stories regarding this very subject, one of which is from sitting in an elder's meeting discussing one these so called special visits. In the future I'll post it.
AND (I'm on a roll now) miseryloveselders and Av8orn think about this one ...
1. The brothers who work full time (theoretically) make larger donations
2. The visiting celebrity from another country or area travels bethel's expense, which ultimately is sourced from our donations. They also tend to take a few of their "vacation" days as well.
3. We then have to give up our own time or take time off work to listen to said brother
So it's effectively a double whammy.
Ohhh yeah, without a doubt, it adds insult to injury!! The apostle Paul did work as a tent maker to "support himself." He didn't mooch in Jehovah's name. He didn't G-Job on the side and unbeknownst to his superiors, like Bethelites have to do today. Then again I don't think Paul had any superiors as there was no Governing Body during his time. There was no Writing Department, or Legal Department, or Circuit Overseers, District Overseers, Donation Conventions District Conventions which are glorified publication releases. We foot the bill on all of this. The goverment taxes us, the Watchtower Bible & Track Society of Pennsylvania coerces "volunteer" work out of us. In my opinion whomever is meeting at this hut is more in tune with 1st Century Christianity than the WT/JWs.
I can see the apostle Paul meeting with some Christians here before......
here.
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Hopscotch
Not to mention that horrible, empty, hollow, unfulfilled, regretful feeling on a Sunday night when you go to bed realising that the weekend is over and it's back to work tomorrow and you haven't really had a weekend at all. Just the awful grind of dreaded field service, hall cleaning, hubby spending Sat arvo doing talk or preparing WT for Sunday, get up early again Sunday morning for meeting, stay back till the last (hubby was accounts servant then an elder), then field service again (hubby had to take the group), sometimes an elders meeting at our home which I had to cater for, then a late tea and bed. In between there's the lawn to mow, washing and ironing to be done and all those other chores. No time for fun or rest at all. Unless you took a Saturday off from field service to actually do something fun all the while that guilty conscience is whispering in your head that you should be out in field service.
I am so glad that the last four years have been free from all that.
Hopscotch
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Broken Promises
Thanks for the reminder that I definitely have not missed anything since leaving 10 yrs ago