It would be effed up of me to commit to a JW female, when my heart isn't necessarily into worshiping the faithful and discreet slave.
Indeed, being of an apostate mind and leading a JW sister on would be a lot like marrying a woman to cover up and supress homosexuality. Unless you can convince her to invite another fella into the bed, you are going to be one frustrated mo. In other words, unless you can be upfront with her and tell her how you really feel on the very very off and unlikely chance she will be open-minded and see things your way and follow you happily out of the org, you have the potential to mess up a perfectly good woman's life, not to mention your own.