“….I do not study the Bible to serve my logic at all…absolute truth….fact….true….”
Your statements do not ring true. Your statements point to a need for the bible to be a certain kind of thing, in order to maintain your faith.
“And obviously, the resurrection of Jesus, if it didn't happen, the Bible falls completely apart. That is the central event of the Bible.”
I would modify this statement that the New Testament would fall apart without the resurrection of Jesus. Jews and Muslims happily share the Old Testament with us, and their religious belief systems have not fallen apart.
“There is not any document, not even close, with the kind of documentary backup, including historians of the first century.”
The bible is a compilation of documents. I assume you are repeating claims like this:
There are more copies of the New Testament in existence today than any other ancient manuscript….Currently we know of more than 24,000 complete and partial copies of the New Testament in existence. By comparison, there are only 643 surviving manuscripts of Homer's Iliad. http://dwkeys.tripod.com/bible.html
What I find interesting is the history of these early fragments . Not to mention the epistles and fragments which were rejected from the canon .
http://www.thebibleskeptic.com/appendixa.html
http://www.consider.org/library/text.htm
http://www.sacred-texts.com/chr/apo/index.htm
“If we have no meaning, origin, destiny, then life is meaningless indeed.”
Go ahead – live with meaning! Be moral and make good choices. Worship God. Pray. Take care what you hang your hat on.