Who Or What Influenced You The Most To Leave The Organization?

by minimus 51 Replies latest jw friends

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  punkofnice

  Having been an elder and seeing how the love of God has NOTHING to do with desicions made. It's all to do with what letters came from HQ or some rule or regulation from the 'Flock' book.

  I struggled with how an infallible God made a desicion in a JC then the 'victim' was given 7 days to appeal against God's judgement.

  I saw it was just run like a vicious big business with no regard for the Brothers and Sisters. We were just in the Matrix. Used for what they could get out of us.

  Then the 'overlapping generations' made me sit up......I laughed and thought: 'Am I missing something here, or are they desparate to cover up for armageddon not arriving?!?!'

  Then one day I was out for a walk. I saw cars driving past, hundreds of people and I thought: 'Is God going to murder all these people and children just because they don't want the watchtower?'

  Then my misery began when I announced to the family I no longer believed all the propagana and deceptions.

  My wife hasn't forgiven me and is more loyal to the GB than to me.
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  jean-luc picard

  punkofnice, I really relate to that.

  Then one day I was out for a walk. I saw cars driving past, hundreds of people and I thought: 'Is God going to murder all these people and children just because they don't want the watchtower

  Me too.

  And also:

  "I'm going to live forever"

  What 100years?- no, longer

  200 years?- no longer.

  1000 years?- no longer

  1000000 years? no longer

  A trillion times one trillion years?-.............................................oh come on!

  I like logical things. None of all that is logical.
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  punkofnice

  @jean-luc - I relate to the 'how long will I live' thing too. I don't want to die particularly at the moment but it goes like this with me.....

  ....I look forward to going to the beach. I go to the beach. I enjoy myself. 20 years later that experience is almost meaningless. How long can I go on doing meaningless things and put them behind me for?

  I don't know if I'm explaining myself very well but it just seems life zooms by and ends in nothing no matter how long you live......?
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  LongHairGal

  MINIMUS:

  I remember answering this question before in some fashion. But, since there are so many new posters here it is good to answer it again.

  I would have to say that what prompted me to actually start a 'fade' from the JWs was what I learned on the internet in the year 2000. After learning what I did, there was no way I could, in good conscience, go around knocking on doors telling people this was 'truth'. No more.

  Aside from learning about the U.N. scandal, which I felt was a major betrayal, and the extent of child abuse, what I learned only confirmed what I already suspected. I was no idiot, I was right all along but it still hurts to know you have been 'had'. Like Flipper, I experienced injustice towards me and I personally saw elders' personal biases. I never believed it was a brotherhood and only saw 'love' among extended families. It certainly wasn't shown to single women. I was unique in that regard because I refused to follow in the footsteps of other single women (reduced to poverty, targeted by users and on meds in many cases. Sitting in the back of the hall waiting for armageddon to solve their problems, many of which were caused by their adherence to this religion). I wasn't having any of it.

  However, there were a few kind people I met over the years and for that I am sad but there is nothing I can do about it. The charade is over.
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  OnTheWayOut

  A red dot just led me out of the maze one day.

  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=roPrQyrbxkQ
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  d

  The sense of anxiety of having to get baptized at 13.I always even was I was younger doubted the existance of God. I always felt that God either did not care about me or just did not exist.
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  greendawn

  The whole thing didn't feel right. More specifically the leaders of this org sounded extremely arrogant, power hungry and authoritarian with very grandiose sounding airy fairy claims about their status while members operated along the wrong lines, they were operating about a self centred desire that is to survive a supposed end which seemed to be the immediate and apparently the only reason they were in the org and the way they related to God was based on fear and not on a free loving relationship. The org didn't have the feel of love about it and was instead dominated by the negative emotion of fear.

  Having subsequently checked the history of these leaders I found they were just like all the others, people that lusted for power and glory for themselves and were quite ruthless towards anyone that challenged their position. Certainly not the picture of spiritual health.
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  jamiebowers

  Feeling forced to stalk my abusive estranged jw husband until he chose to either commit adultery or murder.
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  Mary

  Who Or What Influenced You The Most To Leave The Organization?

  Johnny the Bethelite.

  And Mini-me.
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  WTWizard

  I simply realized that, whether or not it was the truth, I was better off out. And the worst would be for me to remain in and it was the truth--endless nothing but other men, all MY fault. And that would have been a worse guilt trip than all the "You're not doing enough field circus" could have been.