welcome, umadevi and imasheilatoo
I was never a Witness, but I married one. Before I met him I raised two children alone. It was a long, hard road but my children knew that I was there for them always. We remain close to this day.
I know you don't have any spare time, umadevi, but if you decide to leave the witnesses, do what you can to hook up with a local community of some kind. It is so much easier if you are not alone.