They are worried about me!

TimothyT

Hi everyone!

So I havnt been to a meeting now for about a month or so! Today, i decided for a change that id just go! IT WAS SO BORING... One young sister gave a good talk however. It just shocks me how little they talk about True Christian principles and instead focus on the endless dronings of the importance of the field service. The truth is, i understand that the organisation has no claim at all to run our lives and after reading Crisis of Conscience i firmly believe this.

My reasons for not going are many, but basicaly they stem from the fact that i have recently embraced my sexuality as a gay man and have thus concluded that as i am condemend by the religion I may aswell give up alltogether. I am doing very well since embracing my sexuality. I have met a WONDERFUL young man who i think is marvellous. We have been spending lots of time together while my attendance at meetings and on field service has been waning severely.

One sister spoke to me today and told me that she and many others have been worrying a lot. I find that sweet but i wish they would open thier eyes. Im not turning my back on this organisation - it is turning its back on me. She knows that i have had issues in fully agreeing that the 'Faithful and Discreet Slave Class' are appointed by Jesus to feed us. I just totaly disagree with that teaching. it makes no sense to me whatsoever, but like all Witnesses who just go along with little or no questioning whatsoever, she told me that i SERIOUSLY need to reconsider the basic 'truths' and teachings of the organisation. The fact is, for the past month or two i have been reading my bible more and more, and thus have realised that Christianity is simply doing the will of God and following Christ. Granted, im not the best Christian, but im still going to try my very best to show my appreciation for his ransom. Im fed up of all the oraganisational doctrine. Im sick of following the rules and traditions of men as opposed to those of Jesus.

Since accepting my sexuality, my life has taken an entirely new direction... i feel the old me is dying away and i feel reborn, free and best of all HAPPY!!! :D

Some of you here have helped me in this process, so i thank you, and thanks for reading my ramblings here!

Love you all,

Timmy xxx

OnTheWayOut

Oh, please don't 'give up altogether' as if you are doomed. JW's are wrong, they are the problem, not you.

It's great that you are feeling reborn, free, happy.

I love the "We've been worried" or "We missed you" type of comments JW's make. My wife went to a different meeting recently and one of the elders I used to serve with said "Tell OTWO I have been thinking of him."

I asked my wife what his comment meant to her. She tried to simply say "It means he has been thinking of you." I wouldn't let that go. I asked what it means to say"We miss you" and "I've been thinking of you" when they don't do anything like call my cell phone or anything at all to show some action along with your thoughts. I was clear to her what I was asking.

She absolutely refused to say it, so finally I said "Why is it so hard for you to say that all those comments mean 'You should be at the meetings.'? That is all these people mean. Bro. X could have called me, could have verified with you if I had the same phone number. He did none of that and will do nothing about 'thinking about me.'"

My point, don't let these people and anything they say make you feel doomed or condemned or guilty or nothing. They are cult trained. That's all.

Satanus

'it is turning its back on me.'

Same thing happened to me. When i started asking serious questions, and not just accepting the blase answers, that was the end for me, as far as they were concerned, out the door w me.

Glad that you are being true to yourself. If you stick w just the words of jesus, you'll be alright. Afterall, the designation christian comes from christ, jesus, to be exact.

S

ABibleStudent

Good luck TimothyT. I hope that you continue to follow Jesus Christ and post on the JWN.

Peace be with you and everyone, who you love,

ABibleStudent

stillstuckcruz

Great to hear this Timothy!

It just shocks me how little they talk about True Christian principles and instead focus on the endless dronings of the importance of the field service.

^Very true. Seems like every "bible highlights" part highlights how the organization should be run. Every point is how to obey the elders and don't scoff at their wise councel yada yada.

It's great to hear that your finally happy. Funny how that happens AFTER you left where you were told you would be happy. No way in hell God would just do away with someone like you simply because you aren't a witness. Keep hope alive! :)

transhuman68

TT, there is a whole world of information available to us about Christianity and Jesus, that the Witnesses know nothing about. They are indoctrinated into the religion, and the meetings consist of constant repetition of their flawed doctrine. They have ceased learning, and now just accept what is spoon-fed to them. For you, taking a stand that can be controversial, you will need to keep researching and learning, so you can be confident and defend yourself & your beliefs. Life is an adventure and a journey of discovery- IMO going back to the KH for any reason is a dead-end.

Mad Sweeney

"reconsider the basic 'truths' and teachings of the organisation"

When they say this, they mean the following: impending genocide to be followed by a nice picnic with lions and pandas. If they push you too hard just tell them this: "Show me a scripture that says people will be resurrected on to the earth and I'll come right back to all the meetings."

They are SO CERTAIN in their belief it never even dawns on them that such a scripture doesn't exist. The Bible makes NO MENTION of an earthly resurrection AT ALL. It is made by inference, cherry-picking Israel restoration scriptures and combining them with vague mentions of resurrection elsewhere. There is just no passage in the Bible that says anything about an earthly resurrection. Most of the ones the JWs use are clearly referring to heaven from context.

So when they show you a scripture describing paradise conditions, you can ask, "where does this mention any resurrection?"

When they show you scriptures mentioning resurrection, you can ask, "where does this say it is on earth?"

When they try to make the connection between two very different passages hundreds of pages apart you can say, "what scripture says that those two are connected and talking about the same thing?"

Or you could just not go to the KH anymore and ignore them.

jamiebowers

Has one person called or stopped by to see how you are? If not, they're not worried...they're just nosey!

scooterspank

I'm so happy for you! Embrace your sexuality and your partner!!! Me thinks I should go embrace mine.

Pams girl

Hi Timmy, Ive been wondering how you are getting on!

Im glad you are putting on the new personality.......the real you is emerging like a butterfly from a cocoon...........just wonderful!

You know now that the organisation you are in condems homosexuality and they will never accept you. You dont NEED their acceptance, or approval actually. Accept YOURSELF. Be YOURSELF. You dont NEED them to have faith.

I knew it would be a matter of time before you got the "we are worried about you" spiel..........tell them "You dont need to worry about me, Im FINE!" What were your reasons for going to that particular meeting after missing so many?

If you SERIOUSLY consider the basic "truths" of the org, as "suggested" by the sister, you will find the whole thing is a farce. So I agree with her in that respect, DO SOME RESEARCH ABOUT IT!!

Im so glad your relationship is going well, I know he supports you. Please keep up up-to-date on your progress, I hope you find the courage to leave them and embrace Jesus Christ instead. He wont let you down!

Lots of love, Paula xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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