I find reading this information from different individuals that being a JW and then leaving has people not wanting anything to do with God. Why? Did God tell us to become members of a cult? I don't think so. But I was the same way. I think it is a form of programming that is given over and over that we would be like a dog returning to its vomit.
Well I guess I like vomit according to them because I have gone back to GOD but not on their unholy terms. It has been a struggle but I continue to deprogramm over time and have been able to heal.
Here's hoping that healing will come to us all that have left and now that the world is free of their intense mind control it is good to be alive.
See ya!