Moshe, just beautiful! Wow! You really are the winner here.
Robdar, I have a story somewhat similar. 30 years ago a JW girl (me) met a nonJW guy at a new job. We became friends, debated religion, me on that soapbox tellin' him the what for...(sigh). He was living with a girl, I had just come out of a 3 year relationship with a nonJW and in no mood to have another one. About 6 months after we met, we ended up at a wedding of one of my staff and that afternoon he invited me to come to the beach and share a bottle of wine. A few days later he talked HR out of my address and ended up on my doorstep. My roomate was on her way out to "meeting", looked at me like "ok I've never heard of this guy and will you be okay?" She went to meeting, and we literally fell in love that evening listening to a new album I had just purchased.
Within a few weeks, he asked me to marry him, I said no because of the religion issue. He moved a few hours away, then he moved to the opposite coast sometime later. We were always attached, sorting things out, moving on. Sometime after that he flew back out and we hashed out the reasons for not being together, AGAIN, horrible painful conversations. But I could not do it, I was too entrenched in my JW world, no matter how much I loved him. Soon after, he wrote me that he was engaged, I was happy for him even though he said in the letter, "I am tired looking for another you."
We kept in limited touch through the following years, we saw each other a few times, but when the convo came to us, he was committed to his children and would not do anything until the youngest was 18. About 12 years ago, I severed it, and we had even more limited contact after that, maybe a "Happy New Year" or share a poem or something we thought the other would enjoy every year or two. I left the Witnesses 10 years ago, and couldn't even bring myself to tell him...couldn't find the words. I had to work through so many issues after leaving, and especially not giving our relationship a chance because of a religion I eventually left...well...I just somehow didn't want to discuss it. I eventually told him 2-3 years ago, and he was shocked. He said he always talked to JW's because he felt there must be something to it, because it would have to if I was involved. **sigh**
Last year, 3 weeks after my mother died, I received an email to call him, something that had never happened before. When we finally talked, he said he had started a divorce 4 mths earlier when his son went off to college. It is a terribly contentious divorce, she is Catholic...and mad as hell, even though they have had troubles for years and years.
Last year in June, he came out ostensibly to a family graduation, and then to see me. As a coinkidink, a friend posted an interview from NPR on my FB wall of the artist whose album I had just purchased and we listened to the night we fell in love. I was at work and couldn't play the link so I ended up clicking on her website (which I'd never been to) to read about the interview and see she had concert dates the very weekend my friend would be visiting. We could not believe it. I bought the tickets, which happened to be in a venue like a hippie Woodstock, camping sort of thing...lol, in one of my favorite parts of Cali, the central coast.
So...he came, and much like with Robdar, it's like no time has passed. Someone asked me if he had changed, and you know, time has changed our bodies, our hair is gray (well mine is dyed ;-)), our faces lined, our bellies soft...but the spirit is like when we met really. He says I'm more serious. He is incredibly proud of what I've been through in leaving JW, and calls me courageous. We got along incredibly well, together every minute for 4 days straight in a spectacular, beautiful area. He said as we were driving home, "I wonder why we never did this before?" LOL, well....I knew...JW!!!!!
He said we were always more alike than I thought. He was right. All I could see is where we differed; he saw where we were alike. I felt we argued a lot, he didn't see it that way. He felt we were just discussing our viewpoints. He was right. He was right. He was right. We are now on the same page with everything...even death and dying. I feel funny about being too mushy here, but the connection, the touch, the feel, the kisses, the smell too...is well, like a perfect, familiar, comfortable fit. Time didn't change a thing there. It's just amazing to me. To us both.
Ok, this is way too long. Sorry. I don't know the end of this story yet. He's got a lot to take care of, including rebuilding a business devasted in the recession. And actually, since I am free from the religion, I am enjoying 'me' right now, with no limits. I am excited with my new life and all that it brings. I no longer feel weakened from the unrequitted love I carried for so long, and strangely feel less tethered to him. He is thousands of miles away so that helps as he sorts his life out. But we really do have a story. He still makes me laugh, morning noon and night. He would tell people on our trip, "I've been chasing her for 30 years." I'd say, "29." Then he'd say, "we don't like to rush into things." lol.
So "cheers" to all...Robdar, palm, Loz, FHN. Life and love is strange and wonderful.