Hi Aprostate, Welcome to the board!
Your story is very interesting...though sadly somewhat familiar. I am looking forward to hearing the rest of it.
I am so glad you went for therapy despite the pressure from your mother and the indoctrination of all witnesses that therapy is dangerous. I'm glad you were able to get rid of all that unnecessary guilt and realize that you are a worthwhile person.
We look forward to getting to know you better.
think41self
She had the vocabulary of a brothel owner specializing in service to sailors with Tourette's syndrome