PP, I have been reading up your previous threads. On one you say:
It's getting to the point where I'm constantly having violent fanstacies about hurting them and recently I actually considered buying a gun. Before this job I was non-violent but they are starting to push me to a dark place. I've concluded that I need to be in an environment where I can get comfort from the Bible and associate with people who aren't worldly.
I can now better understand your attacks on JWN.
You do need help. I'm not sure that the JWs are the best choice, but in anycase I wish you well and hope you will feel better in yourself.
Good luck on the road ahead. It will not be an easy one.