I was going to post about how, maybe we are crazy freaks. But welcome and I will stay on the serious side.
Yes, you are correct. WTS training made you an accomplice in your own remaining ignorant of the truth about "the truth."
Many here were certain they were going to die at Armageddon for some time after they left until they learned otherwise. Many were out and back in once or more than once.
p.s. as a born-in this is my first week using swear words........ how am I doing?
While I was still a JW, I had this co-worker, an upper boss, who made it his goal to break me down and get me to swear. I told him they were just words. Of course he didn't understand why I would not use certain words if they were just words. I basically said "Because I used to use those words way too often and breaking myself of that habit was good for me." (I eventually used an F*bomb to make him happy, but it was years later.) Now that I am not JW, I will occasionally use those words, but just when I really think they are proper for emphasis, like when I was talking about JW's or my past to close friends and discussed how I was "mind-fu*&ed."
Use the words very sparingly. That's my point. I am okay with people that use them, they are just words, but it's refreshing to hear people talk and save the attention-getting words for places they belong.