Well my uncle just called me and told me he was visiting tomorrow, asking about family and such. Good, no objection to that. He asked to put mom on the phone, so I did. I couldn't help but overhear them start talking sh*t about my dissenting cousin. And guess what came into the conversation? Tomorrow's WT Study on Apostates. This f*cking cult has my balls in a knot. I overhear my mom "Oh tomorrow will be great! That study will be an eyeopener for YOUTHS (emphasis) The apostates are doing a lot of HARM!" Headache started setting in instantly. My mother as you may know is aware, no one outside my immediate family knows of this. It is insane the control they have. The Watchtower really has to look at the damage they are doing to families. Ive shown her the damn facts! It's like im talking to a damn muppet (not just relating to this, but anything.) She is absent minded and mentally ill. PERFECT PREY FOR THEM.
The extent I've gone to make her happy... I lied most of my life and stayed as a publisher, lied to the elders about her smoking. AND SHE IS STILL SMOKING while going to HALL. She sees the fakery but part of her still believes it is genuine... What kind of twisted sh*t i'm living day in and out? If I had the resources I dont know what I would do to end this monumental scam of a religion.. At this moment I don't want to speak to any Jehovah's Witness at all, they are all inept individuals. (those fully washed, unconscious..) I dont know, I'm going counterproductive (possib.) and shunning my mother, I'm blasting mad. I've in fact felt some rejection towards her... It pains me. It's disgusting.
I'm aware I have my picture as an avatar, I really dont care if someone from my hall reads this. If you're from my ex-hall and reading this, you are about to, or are already aware of the great injustices being comitted. You might as well understand me, in the off chance you want to harm me more: Go right ahead. I havent done harm to anyone, I'm only exposing the sad truth.