so you did have a problem than? you had anxiety about armageddon and you wanted to assuage that anxiety?
@ me?
No, I don't think I had a problem with armageddon. I really felt what I was learning was the truth. When armageddon failed it had little affect on me, and I stayed in the religion for many years. I was not fully aware of what the organization had said about 1975 being the end, and when remarks were made about some people misunderstanding it all, I didn't question it. Only in the past few years have I looked into that, and have discovered what a completely dishonest organization the WTS is.
In the early days, I spent long hours reading publications, such as Jehovah's Witnesses in the Divine Purpose, the Society's first history book, and looiking into doctrinal beliefs. The history impressed me greatly. The accuracy of the doctrinal beliefs impressed me too. As I mentioned, I was very gullible. I believed everything I heard -- from the platform, at an assembly, from a CO, from a pioneer, from a mature person in the congregation, from the publications -- I believed it all, only to eventually find out that so much of if was pure manipulation.
My eyes began to open when the long held understanding of the 'generation that will not pass away' was changed. I could see prior to the change that time was running out, and knew that something would have to give sooner or later. What gave was getting rid of the old understanding, and replacing it with the silly notion of a 'contemporary generation of wicked people', or words to that effect, followed by 2 or 3 more changes since.
At about the same time I noticed that elders lie from the platform. For example I heard one eder say, "The Society's position on blood has never changed." I felt that wasn't quite right when he said it, and I never forgot it. When I got the internet I looked into that, and found there had been literally dozens of changes over the decades.
I honestly believed it was the truth, and gave my life to it. I think that when I came in I was about as normal as most kids my age.