Flipper I cannot even begin to say how much this board has meant to me. I thought I was alone and something was wrong with me because I could never fit in, no matter what I did, I pioneered, went to where the need was great, went to Bethel, was an elders wife for 23 years, opened my home to the whole congregation many times and I have a small house of only 900 sq feet. Everyone always came, one time I had over 90 people in my home where there was standing room only, as no one else would give of themselves or their home. Yet when my husband had a major heart attack while he was conducting the school no one could drive me to the hospital, yet alone stay with me. It was amazing, even the hospital staff and some of the other worldly people visiting their families were surprised at how alone I was.
I was so depressed that I thought dying would be my only out. To me life was just not worth living. I just could not fit in the religion no matter what, I could not make friends in the religion yet I was scarred to make friends outside the religion from all I was told. I thought if inside I am treated so horribaly what will it be like outside? It was all brainwashing.
I was so totally alone thinking I was crazy, I did everything that was asked of me in the religion if they said jump I said how high. I jumped through all the hoops thinking that something would finally click somehow I would finally be good enough for them.
Then the child molesters moved into my hall and they were accepted by the elders, who totally loved by them. The pedophiles got everything I ever wanted and I was treated like even worse crap for not liking the child molesters by the elders, a CO told that I just needed to get a handle on my feelings toward them and come to grips with my feelings.
If it were not for me finding this board I think or I am sure I would have committed suicide by now.
I am just so glad for this board and for those like you and Mrs. Flipper, mouthy who was the first to pm me.
This board saved my life.
LITS