Chalam, my conscience is only as good as my knowledge, isn't it? Besides that thing has a hair trigger on it, and it's been wrong before, due to inaccurate knowledge. So I'm hoping to gather more information so I can see how I feel about it in a few days.
"Knowledge" is very much a WTism, i.e. one just need's to hear "the truth" and accept it.
However, the bible speaks of revelation from God via His Spirit as being essential, not just facts Matthew 16:17, John 12:37-40, 1 Corinthians 2 etc.
As it is, "the truth" according to the WT is actually a lie and "another gospel".
Look in the New Testament and we are continually exhorted to live by the Spirit, not the law or the written code Romans 7, Romans 8
JWs live by rules, the ten commandments etc. However, by doing such things they are actually under the curse of the law! Galatians 3:10, Galatians 5:4, Romans 4:15
As to one's conscience, it is a confirmation (assuming it hasn't been seared or corrupted) Acts 24:16, Romans 2:15, Romans 9:1, 1 Corinthians 4:4 , 1 Timothy 4:2 , Titus 1:15
It confirms, the prompting of the Holy Spirit which is also confirmed by the bible. The Spirit will not tell you to go and sleep with prostitutes, rob a bank or kill your tax inspector. Hopefully the impulse to do any of these things will be contrary to your consciense and also your recollection of the bible.
My own feeling is that the Spirit is telling you it is time to DA yourself. The benefits of following the Lord always far outweight any negatives.
Consider the following.
Matthew 16:24-27
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24 Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. 25 For whoever wants to save their life [ a ] will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it. 26 What good will it be for someone to gain the whole world, yet forfeit their soul? Or what can anyone give in exchange for their soul? 27 For the Son of Man is going to come in his Father’s glory with his angels, and then he will reward each person according to what they have done.
Matthew 19:27-30
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27 Peter answered him, “We have left everything to follow you! What then will there be for us?”
28 Jesus said to them, “Truly I tell you, at the renewal of all things, when the Son of Man sits on his glorious throne, you who have followed me will also sit on twelve thrones, judging the twelve tribes of Israel. 29 And everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or wife or children or fields for my sake will receive a hundred times as much and will inherit eternal life. 30 But many who are first will be last, and many who are last will be first.
Matthew 10:32-40
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32 “Whoever acknowledges me before others, I will also acknowledge before my Father in heaven. 33 But whoever disowns me before others, I will disown before my Father in heaven.
34 “Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I did not come to bring peace, but a sword. 35 For I have come to turn
“‘a man against his father,
a daughter against her mother,
a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law—
36 a man’s enemies will be the members of his own household.’
37 “Anyone who loves their father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves their son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me. 38 Whoever does not take up their cross and follow me is not worthy of me. 39 Whoever finds their life will lose it, and whoever loses their life for my sake will find it.
40 “Anyone who welcomes you welcomes me, and anyone who welcomes me welcomes the one who sent me.
Sure, it is a huge step and you need to count the cost but don't leave it too long.
Luke 14:25-33
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The Cost of Being a Disciple
25 Large crowds were traveling with Jesus, and turning to them he said: 26 “If anyone comes to me and does not hate father and mother, wife and children, brothers and sisters—yes, even their own life—such a person cannot be my disciple. 27 And whoever does not carry their cross and follow me cannot be my disciple.
28 “Suppose one of you wants to build a tower. Won’t you first sit down and estimate the cost to see if you have enough money to complete it? 29 For if you lay the foundation and are not able to finish it, everyone who sees it will ridicule you, 30 saying, ‘This person began to build and wasn’t able to finish.’
31 “Or suppose a king is about to go to war against another king. Won’t he first sit down and consider whether he is able with ten thousand men to oppose the one coming against him with twenty thousand? 32 If he is not able, he will send a delegation while the other is still a long way off and will ask for terms of peace. 33 In the same way, those of you who do not give up everything you have cannot be my disciples.
With love in Christ,
Stephen