Hi. I have not posted in years - although i do check in and lurk from time to time. I am sadnessed and compelled to post - i was dfed at 16 having been baptised at 12. The elders were lecherous, note taking demons at my jc. I was the victim of a teacher using his position unspeakably. I also had an age appropriate jw boyfriend prior to this terrible situation - of course he was an elders son and connected in the cong. We were the poor, barely paying for our magazines family. My heart is sick to even think of the 14/15/16 year old i was and what i lived through.
I finally confessed to them because i was done- he tried to commit suicide in front of me, his wife was pregnant, my friend (same age, unbaptised jw with an age appropriate non - jw boyfriend) was found out by her parents, i had a life threatening eating disorder that i kept hidden.
They dfed me - brilliantly and completely. I was so freaked out i just answered all their questions - no tears - big no no they told my dad. I also came to the jc meetings in jeans (after school)- I should have changed.
They specifically told me i was NOT ALLOWED to go to the police, or to consider anything this pig did to be wrong in any way - after all, he was a worldly man and I should have known better.
This was a small town, rural Canada. I was not allowed to speak to any jw, have any association with anyone else, speak to anyone about this at all....the details are chilling really when i think about it.
The jw organization is evil. The way they treat their children is worse than evil.
I was 16. There was a teacher - a wonderful woman that I love to this day - that helped me, without knowing anything. Without her i would have killed myself.
To this day - i am faded, 45, and happy - my jw parents still say i was in the wrong and should have known better.