I've had a very difficult 2 months since my uncle has died. It is not becasue of his death, it just so happend to follow his death and that is the time line.
I've always been a strong woman, from little, I had to stand on my own two feet and not lean on anyone - and I that is how I tick.
Each instance has hit me financially and has been piled high on my plate. There have been days when I thought I should end it all and literally take my own life - If I had something quick at my disposal, I know I wouldn't be here now. Sometimes I just can't put on a smile - I don't want too. Other times - like Esther's puppies - I can't help but smile and am okay.
I have asked the question "why me" - but I also reason"why not me". I don't blame anything or anyone, sometimes life just goes like that and sucks for a while - it's hard to see the light side of life when that happens:
To sum up ordeals: Bad cat bite - tetenis & rabies injections - The owner now doesn't want to pay the fees - court. My uncle's death. My flat broken into while I slept and my bag containing ID, drivers license, money, car keys, credit cards, house keys stolen. My car stolen. Car found in an okay condition. Sorting out of all the things stolen or to get fixed = very costly, frustrating and time consuming. Got a fine because I didn't have a license and though explained about the theft and had an affidavit the officer didnt care. Moving back home. Editor interferred to such a degree in my job that I resigned out of desperation. Thank goodness I got another job but as less than half of what I cleared.
I'm hoping 2012 is going to be a much better year, it has to be.