I understand that to mean you arrived at your present beliefs by searching and thinking. Is this right?
Yes. As far as I know I never was without belief in God. But my life proved I was not being led by God. I was the same as any atheist.
I had a revelation. I had more than one. My present beliefs continue to evolve. But yes, my present belief was arrived at by searching and thinking. I do not subscribe to a human mentor.