I liked all the fantasy --- perfect world very soon on the horizon and no sickness/no death. Had lost the major family (bio) members I dearly loved and could rely/depend on. I liked the fact they don't kill in wars and some how would listen to my sister talk about this religion that seemed so right (so right but so wrong!). I became brainwashed reading some of the mags (talk about stupid!). Once I was attending meetings/studying it didn't add up (the people were awful -- sure, a couple of decent ones) and had decided I would never be baptized. The power of wanting to fit in/be accepted --- more ignorance. This should have been a clue I needed a shrink not a religion. I'm sure it's coming from a dysfunctional family (not the grandparent/aunt I lost -- they were perfect to me) and trying to replace them or desperately needing God in my life. Trying to reconcile all the evil that had taken place and totally ignoring the evil inside the hall.
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