I was utterly confused as a young kid. Despite being bored out of my mind and disassociating to cope, I heard the passage of scriptures about Moses being in some sort of danger if he saw the face of God. Next, someone prayed at an assembly that Jehovah was present in the hall. I took it literally. My eyes starting scanning hidden areas (I did not see him in the main room or on the podium), I check every ventilation grid and similar places. I so much wanted to see Jehovah but I was afraid if I saw him, he would murder me. All the adults applauded so heartily that I thought this was the defining moment in human history.
I could not picture him. He had to be very, very scary. All he ever did was punish people for not complying with arbitrary rules. As I learned more and more OT stories, I felt bad for the humans. I may have told my mom I could not find him. Next, the orange book, From Paradise Lost, entered our house with all the very express pictures of normal people being destroyed through earthquakes, building falling, etc.
Jesus seemed nice. Jehovah was utter terror.
What is wrong with Sunday school and age appropriate teachings. My fear of Jehovah meant I never trusted him. he became my enemy. Armageddon seemed all over the top. Cleaning up all the dead bodies for untold thouands of yeaars did not seem to be Paradise. Many decades later, my brother and I laugh so hard at the terror of the Paradise Lost book. Specific illustrations of terror items remain fresh in my mind. There are so many calming, and utterly beautiful Bible passages. Why could they not balance them? Children are not little adults. Being chained to a seat for a WT meeting when you are a toddler and up makes you resent the religion.
What is so evil about crayon drawings, children's songs, and having the congregation dote on children rather than resenting them.