I personally now know way to much about the reality of this organization to ever live that lie again. Yes many of them are well meaning folks, but it is not worth it to me.
The love they show is soo conditional on you staying in line, you thinking as they think, you turning your mind and your will over to the GB (we love the leader). To me, now that I see the whole picture, nothing is worth the table scraps of conditional love.
It took time, but I have developed new friends, new family. It was amazing, I got in a fight with one of them, a real doozy of a disagreement. I thought our friendship was over, why? because I grew up with conditional love. Difference of opinion meant, we can no longer speak to each other. She was like, what's the big deal? We can fight and still be friends. WHOA? Seriously? It was my first real lesson in what love and acceptance really was.