As darth frosty said: get busy living or get busy dying.Life is going on, don't let it pass you by. You have received some good advise above. You need to make friends and build a support network. Take some University
classes, join a gym, do something to meet other people with whom you can become friends and do thing together. Life is not easy, but it is harder when you are in a place where you are not happy. The organization
will only keep you down and keep you from the many opportunities life has to offer. Most of us who have left, had it rough for a while, and sometimes things still get rough when we cannot associate with our family, but
life goes on. There is life and happiness outside of the organization.