I am such a person, a person with a customized religion.
I am a work in progress.
I am like a heat seeking missle that twist and turns seeking out the target of truth.
One thing I know is what ever I believe there will be many that disagree and say I am wrong.
I also believe if I find or have found the truth I may not know what to do with it.
I may not want anything to do with it.
I believe that I live each day as if it were my last.
I believe that there are logical problems with the bible.
I believe that there are uplifting scriptures in the bible and from time to time I have returned to them and read them.
I believe that customizing a personal religion with a personal God, helper is more beneficial to me than being a flat out
atheist.
I believe that many would say and by certain definitions I am an atheist. I prefer the term agnostic.
I believe truth is where you find it. And when I find it or think I have found it. I begin testing to ascertain whether
its fools gold or not.
I believe the bibical hell is a metaphor for darkness and being cut off from the light source.
I believe since I cant absolutely, name or prove the light source, I may be considered atheistic or agnostic.
I believe the bibical light source is Jesus, but because of all the logical biblical problems I have to insert either intellectual
weakness here or faith.
I do believe in 60 years when feeling down and out in the past that thinking about jesus and his promises is to me
much more uplifting and upbuilding than any of the many, many atheistic books that I have read. In fact over the past 10 years
I have read many atheistic books to the point of being spiritually drained and then to build myself back up I would have
to think of Jesus and the bible, and its more than thinking its reading about Jesus and his words and when I do, I feel life, just
like the scriptures say.
I believe right or wrong provable or unprovable that I am not the kind of person that could say there is no God and feel
good about it.
I believe that I am the kind of person that when I dont feel good, I try to correct that. I believe from studying anatomy and physiology
in college that everybody is that way.
I believe I like to drink alcohol often and to excess because it makes me feel good. But I dont because I think it will kill me.
Thinking about a higher power makes me feel good and I dont think doing so will kill me.
I believe thinking about scientific and other arguments that there is no God does not make me feel good and
having observed and reflected for 60 years I fear atheistic thinking will kill me. I have seen it kill more than one person in
this life.
I look at Christopher Hitchens he could eloquently argue many believers under the table. But his dying a miserable
alcoholic and cigarette smoker tells me that he was medicating himself from the harsh realities of the truth he was
fashioning for himself and others. I choose not to go down that road.
I believe I will look at that road, travel along side it from time to time, understand it as well as I am intellectually capable
But I dont believe I will go down it.
I believe when we die, we will know which road was the right one.
I believe in the 10 commandments.